Healer of Wounded Hearts

I know you're hurt inside .......I know your pain as well as your story. I also know that it hasn't been easy living and that you have been brought down on numerous occasions by someone or something. No matter how hard you try and how much success you gain in this world, your heart is still unable to catch that elusive peace. You cry with tears and without them but nobody's truly there with you to share your agony. Nobody's truly there to empathize with you. You not only feel guilty for the pain you caused other people but also for the sins you committed.You're not such a bad person the world portrays you to be. And now,unfortunately, you feel deserted, broken and lost inside. But it didn't had to be this way. It wasn't supposed to be this way. You were born to shine and shine you should; the universe anticipates your rise. You are sleeping but you're not dead yet. You shall not be defeated this easily, not on my watch. So wake up! O blessed one and come to me so that you be shown the light to resurrect. And so that your dreams be fulfilled and your anguish defeated once and for all. I shall await your arrival for I'm madina..........healer of wounded hearts.

Notes
1. Come to me means physically or/and spiritually.
2. Identification of any mistake would be much appreciated.
3. Kindly ask in case of any ambiguity. 

Familiar Foe

Here I am yet again man to man against my beloved, merciless nemesis. Feels like ages since the inauguration of our rivalry......time is indeed a flyer. Although I have the luxury to surrender this time and find another means to an end but surrendering isn't something i'm accustomed to.   

My friend.......my foe...... such is the majestic deception of this masked demon that I sometimes find it hard to discern. In any case, odds have always been against me. My enemy has displayed immaculate prowess while pursuing a "no prisoner" policy. It has always left me battered and bruised after the battle.......but battered and bruised I return like always to accomplish my dream. But before the war reinstates, I must go back to the drawing board to rejuvenate my intellectual skills and abilities. 

As I sat down and glanced around to start my training session which is like an old cellar, I was reminded of the insurmountable outlook of work to be done in order for me to be in a more competitive shape. And just as I was about to be delivered a sucker punch by the devil's favorite child "hopelessness", some mystic rays of hope pierced through the window and struck me twice, first to my face and then to my soul, telling me to rise and rise again until lambs become lions. Telling me to feel the "winds of change". I sighed and then beamed back to it knowing something's peculiar this time around.

The Great Invitation

Just like any other unfortunate soul, I too was drifting away into no man's land. I thought I knew what I was doing and where I was headed but my thoughts lacked substance and results like always. Although I was living a pretty satisfied life or perhaps I thankfully tend to see the brighter side of the picture but in any case I was just.....living. Regrettably the only thing I'm good at. But then it happened and in the midst of my madness and self destruction I was delivered an invitation to a journey of a lifetime. A journey that would show me the truth and bring colour to my life. And most importantly a journey whose recollection would rescue me whenever I would fall..........it was a journey of HAJJ.

Thanks to the master of the worlds ALLAH, my hajj went incredibly safe and delightful. I felt like a guest of honour within couple of days of arrival in makkah. I felt like I was destined to be there in order to reclaim my life. The food was great and residence was comfortable as well. Everything was in order including the transportation. Millions of people around the globe wish with utmost desire for this journey and here I was blessed with the same journey with comfort. Strange as it may sound but the truth is that I never wished for such a journey nor I knew that a muslim should atleast wish for it. So this only goes to show the greatness of ALLAH that he not only invites his pious men and women but also lost and disobedient souls like me. There is not a single doubt in my mind that I never deserved such a blessed journey and it only reiterates my earlier point that it only proves ALLAH's greatness...........sigh...........feels like even the word greatness doesn't even begin to describe ALLAH's greatness.

May ALLAH invite you all for HAJJ with comfort in coming years like he invited me. Ameen.

Time To Zero The Clocks !

My dear friends today I embark on a very sacred journey towards salvation.................towards redemption........or/and perhaps towards resurrection of my soul. I'm leaving for HAJJ to perform one of the most divine and oldest rituals of human civilization. It is said that performing HAJJ and other rituals is no walk in the park and certain limits will be tested but that is what precisely required if one wants his soul to be cleansed from all the evils one did in one's past. In my last post I wished I could get unstained like a child's heart and I guess my wish is about to come true if my HAJJ is accepted. Honestly writing I don't deserve to go on such a blessed journey but ALLAH knows best why he has blessed me to be his guest this time around. So I guess it's time to zero the clocks and come back with a new beginning and a meaningful meaning in my life............perhaps the meaning lurking in the shadows of my heart, waiting for a long time to be unleashed!

Everyone do pray that my and my family's HAJJ is accepted and that we return home safely. May ALLAH be pleased with you all! Ameen

"Here I am O Allah, (in response to Your call), here I am. Here I am, You have no partner, here I am. Indeed all praise, grace and sovereignty belong to You. You have no partner"

Innocence Lost

Well it feels like ages since I last wrote but that's alright since it's better to be late than never. I've been blessed with a thinking machine (although a bit rusty of late) and my absence had nothing to with lack of thoughts but rather lack of will.

There are many questions whose answers remain suppressed to my ignorant mind and one of such is regarding the impeccability of a child. Most people love to kiss and hug children tenderly because of their adorable nature and behavior. I like to do the same and one of the reasons I do so is to feel reborn and unstained which I once was long time back. I once saw this baby at someplace and I was reminded of the shear immaculate nature of god. The best part about children is that their hearts and minds are free of contamination unlike ours. They don't posses any sort of evil and everything about them is pure and more. But the ugly truth is that some/most of these children grow up to be murderers, rapists, prostitutes, junkie and worst of all.........heartbreakers. It's true people make their own choices and everyone chooses to be what he/she wants to become hence I can't help but feel sorry (sometimes gutted) that what was once pure and simple turned out to be the ugliest monster on the face of this planet. I just feel let down to know that the child I'm hugging and kissing just might choose to be the scum of the earth. It just seems so cruel on their god-gifted innocence........sigh........so I'm left with no choice but to feel their innocence..........while it lasts.